Justine的異國喵言喵語

每一年過新年總是會有許多的抱負和希望，但是能真正徹底實行的總是少之又少，
人的意志力真的是很薄弱
或者該說要養成新的良好習慣真的是很難的一件事
所以總是被舊的壞習慣或是惰性所牽絆...
希望自己真的能夠趕快改進很多壞毛病！

哈！好久沒來自己的部落格了喔！
隨著雪精靈的來到，我的部落格也進入冬眠期，不過最近回暖，所以似乎也該試著讓部落格開始發芽了...

這兩個月，也不是沒發生什麼大事，只是就真的有點懶惰，
加上我們家貝勒爺說很多事情不需要寫上來，因為他害羞啦！
所以這兩個月裡好多的活動都沒有寫上來...

複雜的世界

被包覆著的人心

該如何學會去看穿別人是虛假亦或是真心？

要怎麼才能保護自己不會被別人踩著而前行？

怎麼才能擺脫這一股傻？

越到期末壓力越大，真煩！

壓力大到我的腸胃一直出狀況...

已經吐了好幾次了，還有食慾不振...

真是的，到底要怎樣才可以解除這種焦慮啊？

我需要大智慧！！給我一枝魔法棒吧！！

I really like one of my instructors this semester.  He is very famous, but he is very nice.

Before going to his class, I was so afraid.  Just like the traditional students...be good and respect him a lot.  I dared not to talk to him too much..Whenever I saw him, I just smiled.  But, I think, I like him after the first class....

He has the schedule and assigns students to work together according to students' willingness.  Though there are a lot of reading for this class, he thinks about international students.  There will be a blank period of time after reading 2 or 3 books or topics.  So that we can have much detailed discussion and try to catch up with the reading as well...It's very helpful for international students.  I like this idea a lot.  Besides, he also said everyone has the English deficiency, not only the international students.  How come every American thinks that everyone in the world needs to speak English?  So Americans are people who have the strongest English deficiency.  When I heard this, I smiled.  :)  Finally, someone understand what we are struggling with...ha!

Today is the last class...He said there are 8 tasks for us, educators in every field, to accomplish.  Among them, the idea of knowing who you are strikes me the most.  He said we are here because somebody sacrificed for us.  We are standing on others' shoulders.  We need to identify this and work harder.  In addition, before opening the dood, we need to think about who we want to go with us into the world behind that door.  As educators, we all have great responsibilities.

I think his talk reminds me of the reason why I want to come here for further study.  I really want to change something!!  I really need to thank my parents who tried their best to give us a better environment and a better life.  Maybe there are still some more people who helped me to be here...I thank you all...and, indeed, I gotta work harder in order not to make my own dreams come true, but also to give back what I have got from others to them!!

十一月初去了趟Orlando，不是去玩的，是去參加一個會議
AECT-- Association of Educational Communication and Technology
是我自己這個領域的會議，雖然我沒有要發表，但是想要去看看這個會議的組成和目前最新的研究趨勢
這可以寫成另一篇文章了，所以就不在這邊多說
我要說的是，生病真的一點都不好玩啦！尤其是在美國...

今天在要去和好友吃飯的路上，小莓子告訴我他們辦公大樓的那個女警衛過世了...
之前動手術就一直沒有完全康復，這個星期三休假不舒服，去醫院檢查完後回到家就過世了
我好難過...我沒有辦法克制自己的眼淚...

我一直把Lillian看成一個朋友，因為她是一個好慈祥的老人家
在小莓子的辦公大樓裡有好多輪班的警衛

每次讀書讀到累，我就會很想去買菜
或許是因為美國的超市真的都很大，而且東西超多
對我這個好奇寶寶來說有很大的探索空間
每次買菜我都會想買一兩樣沒吃過的東西試試
到現在也嘗試過很多不同的東西了

上個星期天教會結束後，小莓子去媽媽家，而我當然是回到家努力趕報告
因為我要準備去Orlando，連行李都還沒有收，他希望我趕快把自己的事情做完
所以他自己去看媽媽，也順便去陪貓咪玩
結果他回家後，我們在MSN上面聊天的時候，他突然跟我說他有一個很有趣的想法想要跟我分享
他說是他對 romance 的看法

連續兩個星期，Pastor Chris 講的都深扣我心。

記得以前還不是基督徒的時候，我非常地害怕別人來對我傳教，因為以前每每看到電線桿上貼的標語都是世界末日要到了、神要審判世人等恐怖的標語。但是感謝主，祂真的有祂的安排，在我最不順利的時候，安排了祂的使者來到我的身邊，帶領我、引導我、並且把我帶到祂美好的地上的家，讓我有正確的教導，讓我能夠重新認識祂，讓我知道神愛世人而不是要來審判我們！

Pastor Chris emphasized that God loves us just becuase He loves us!! Yes! It's that simple!! We love others because of some reasons. We love our friends becasue we can share our sorrow and joy.  We love our spouse because he/ she is adorable or some other reasons.  However, God loves us just because He loves us!! Can you imagine that? 

This week, pastor Chris talked another important issue with a very interesting example.  Almost every appliance in the house will make the "beep"sound when they are done.  The microwave beeps, the oven beeps, and the washing machine beesp too.  All the beeping sounds keep telling us not to forget we have something in the microwave, in the oven, or in the waching machine.  We shouldn't forget that.  We shouldn't forget God too!!  He is always with us.  We need to think about His words and Him more in our daily life.  Most of the time, we are attracted by the things we see and ignore God.  However, everything comes from God.  My wisdom comes from God so that I can study hard.  When I have difficulties in understanding the materials, I asked for God's wisdom. How can I forget Him when I understadn the material or complete a task?  We need to remind ourselves that we shouldn't forget God!!

My Lord, thank you!!

There was a keynote speaker talking about gaming and literacy yesterday.  He is really famous.  Almost everyone majoring in socioculture literacy and computer games knows him.  He was at UW-Madison just before my coming, so it's really a pity that I can't have his class at UW-Madison.  He transferred to Arizona State university two years ago. 

His speech was good. He kept saying that the world is complicated.  There is no model that people can follow and there is no standardized answer to every question.  What teachers need to do is to help students find their interests and passion to move on.  I agree with his idea.  I think I find my interests in doing instructional design and decide to move on in this field.  I never thought about this before.  I really enjoy my life a lot now, though I have some problems in taking the difficult philosophical class. 

Hope that I can catch up with my own thesis stuff as soon as possible.  In such a complicated world, doing something I am interested in is really exciting!!

Hope everyone can have their dream come true.  Now I am going to pursue my dream-- visiting the Disney World!!! :)

我的碩士生涯已經進入第二年了
去年整年修課都沒有太大的問題，或許也是因為都遇到好老師和很有趣的本科課程
今年的課程都與自己的本科無關，而且兩位老師都是我們系上的超大牌
很希望自己可以好好利用這個機會學一些比較理論的東西
而且因為只有這兩門課和自己的論文要寫

我和小莓子都很喜歡逛 Capital 附近的 Farmers' Market
因為可以買到新鮮又便宜的蔬菜和好吃的甜點
大概兩個星期前吧，我們去買了新鮮地瓜
媽媽家的鄰居Cutie又送了我們好多的黃瓜
只是我們兩個真的太忙了，一直找不到時間做飯